As you all have probably noticed (or not) i've not updated this in a while. I don't know why, but my heart doesn't seem in it. I think that, because quite a few people read it, i'm finding it hard to open up as much as i used to. I'm scared too hurt someone, or say something wrong and i hate having to think about that. The whole purpose of this was to be creative, to blog my thoughts and feelings, and as gay as it sounds it was sort of like a diary for me. Certainly; reading back through my old posts it feels that way and it's a shame that i've not updated in so long, because i feel like i've done, and been through a lot these past weeks.
At the minute not alot matters other than a few things that are taking priority. Don't get mad, or pissed off if i won't come out for drinks or for a night out, i'm saving harder than ever and don't get me wrong it's stupidly difficult. Everyone complains at me for it, and i know it's only 20 quid, but it's 20 quid i need towards my future. Some people save up for a night out at the end of the month, some people save up for a pair of shoes, a car, a house deposit. I'm saving up to make sure i have money to buy a couple of air tickets when the time comes. I don't so much mind not going out, i like spending time with my family, especially as soon enough i won't have them with me for a good half a year. I'm pretty much happy at work now, i know i haven't got long left and it's making the days seem easier and i'm able to go work and actually smile for once. (It's been a long time) Happy days. I've always said it, the key to being happy (for me) is too have something to look forward too. People with nothing to aspire too are not worth my time, what's the point in life if you have no plans to live it?
Not alot matters at the minute other than working, saving, not spending (trying!), planning, and my beautiful and wonderful nan, who's fight officially starts today.
Think pink. Love you all you lovely lot, sorry i've been away. x