cookie monster

Don't you just hate it when

you remember something from a night out and you just think , oh god !!
A little piece of you just wants to die inside aswell ...

Just got that right now ..

Having

my other blog is making it a sort of effort to write on here , i've got so much to write about the past week that the thought of starting at the beggining makes me think cba ! This will turn out to be a bloody essay if i wrote all the gory details so i'll just keep it short . Monday night was pretty sweet . Railway times , and then sharing a lovely suade duvet please ! Soz nice house , me and Becca enjoyed the helicopter Lee ! Tired times at work the next day , nothing a boots meal deal couldn't sort out . Tuesday , soarpoint times . Probably the worse state i've been in a long long time . I can't remember about 4 hours of my night which is pretty scary ! Got home late too , and wasn't in the parents good books so decided to lay low for abit until ( for a night ) . Work the morning after this was dreadfull , thought i was gunna die or something . Everybody took the piss and that was my day to feel rubbish . It was nice to have the day off Thursday and also i got paid so obviously i headed into town . Only went in for headphones , came back with various other things , such as clothing and jewellery , and also alot of make up . Went out Thursday night but only for a couple , wanted to show my face to the schuh lot , so went for a couple of drinks in the almanak and then too nandos . It was my first nandos exprience , and i've got to say , i'm a fan . Thanks to Kieran for helping me order as i had no idea . We were deffo the couple of the night haha . Went highcross after , hardly spent a penny , then headed home for my last bus . I think it's safe to say , Jamie had a messy birthday :) Friday i had work , which was enjoyable watching everyone suffer a massive hangover from the night before . Lynn was particually enjoyable as she almost sprinted round the stockroom singing and laughing in a sort of 'why am i here' daze . Finished my shift and went on the hunt to find a certain someone a leaving present . Went railway again last night , and once again me and becca found ourselves hanging out with the same guys from the past 2 nights this week . It's all fun though . That brings me to now , lying in bed thinking what to do today , got the day of work , which isn't unusal as i hardly ever work Saturdays anymore ! Thinking i might get ready and tidy my room , could be a good start i think . I need food too . I'll try and keep this updated more often so when it comes to the end of the week im trying to remember whats happened !
In the mean time take a look at my tumblr , http://anauthenticproduct.tumblr.com/

xxx

trying to

keep on top of this blog after making my new one , as i enjoy writing a personal sort of diary . Just a quick one though before i'm off out to spend the night with my one and only , today was enjoyable . Fosse park with fox , and then town to see Joe . Deffo been to long my dear . It's nice what we have become after everything . Don't think i could look back from now . I always seem to question what im actually doing with life though when im with you . Its all very messy , so i guess i'm just gunna have to wait to find out . The surprise might be exciting , or it could end up turning horrible wrong , either way ... theres not much i can do about it so watch this space ...

p.s ideally i'd like to win the lottery .

so this weekend i learnt...

spud ♥

you know what , i don't need anybody right now . I have who i need . Don't tell me i'll regret it . I don't regret anything .

i wish i was this age again

i now have a tumblr


http://anauthenticproduct.tumblr.com/

well then;

It seems ages since i last wrote one of these . I'm either too busy , cba , or when it comes to it , i have nothing interesting to write . Who ever reads this surely doesnt want to hear my daily events at work . Incase you were wondering though , this week has been lovely so far . Good people at work make the day go so much better . Me and Dan had a war using carmex in the office , i dressed up in something and walked out onto the shop floor , (this shouldnt have been allowed at all!) , me and Dan procceding to bully each other is like a vicious circle , actually don't want him to leave ! best manager thankyou . Went round Wills on Wednesday to watch I'm a Cyborg , but its ok . It was a strange one to say the least . I reckon i prefered oldboy , as it had a more obvious storyline , although the way I'm a Cyborg was filmed was amazing . Very arty. Will cooked food which was nice and that was my Wednesday . Found out i will be getting a bonus next pay day which is like next Thursday ! Good times. I wish schuh would change my contracted hours however as im still contracted 8 hours a week and i do alot more , and when it comes down to holiday and these sorts of things , i don't get what i should be getting . But oh well , i'm not really complaining , just saying . Dans leaving do is on the 4th of Feb which should be pretty messy , hoping to send him off to Manc with a bang . Hes already told me what he wants as a leaving present . cheeky git . Hoping to go see Jackie this month also , might use my bonus to go see her or i won't end up seeing her for a long while . Not even for my birthday which makes me sad ! So that should be pretty don . Go mental up Liverpool for a couple of days and then sleep it off on the coach home . Sounds perfect to me . Ive missed C2 haha . Talking about my birthday , im 19 soon .How rubbish is that . I don't wanna be 19 . 18 was the best age ! 19 is one of 20 . 2o is old . I need ideas what to do for it none the less . I want something that everyone will enjoy . Soarpoint and mosh does not do this as i know only a select few would be up for that . Ive got just over a month to think about it anyway , no rush . If your wondering , i want money for my birthday , which will go into my savings account asap . Obviously not all of it . Might want some new threads before hand eh. No luck on the job front . I can tell you now , SO frustrating knowing you can't get anywhere and your stuck . I hate it . More than anything. This weekend i plan to sort it all out . How, i dont know but i will .
I best get ready for work now anyway , hopefully it goes quick and were not too busy as i want to get out on time . Hitting Leicester tonight with a few mates which should be a good one, no work tomorrow or sunday ! Donnn. Very good times indeed. Ill try and keep you updated of the weekends events . Although im not sure there will be anything exciting , i guess you never know though . Peace and love !
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'Maturity's a wrapped-up package deal or so it seems. Ditching teenage fantasy means ditching all your dreams. All your friends and peers and family solemnly tell you you will have to grow up. Be and adult. Be bored and unfulfilled. But no one's yet explained to me exactly what's so great about slaving 50 years away on something that you hate. About meekly shuffling down the path of mediocrity. Well if that's your road then take it but it's not the road for me.'

free as a bird

we are a beautiful mess

I can't think of anything to say . Work was nice today . Alot of people came in who i knew , and i was working with safe people . I'm looking forward to tomorrow night , but i won't get too hyped about it , it always seems a let down when i do that . I want to start reading again , anything ... so when i next get chance im going libary . Like carrie from SATC , you can't beat the smell of libary books . I also need to go doctors , and do various bits and bobs at home . Oh what a life i lead . Thought id update you anyway , thought it had been a while . Just wish i had more to report . Maybe something big will happen soon ...

strange mood

sunday secrets

OH AND

DANS LEAVING :( DONT GO DAN .
:( :(

oh life.

Well last night was certainly an experience ! Enjoyed it though , i love them all . Jamie ; Laura is lovely . So , company was amazing , music was pretty decent and i was laughing alot . Happy birthday keiran ! I enjoyed the sofa moment me and him had . We found ourselves laughing for no apparent reason , then he pulled out some mini cookies out of nowhere . I think i fell in love with him . It was nice to talk to Lynn too . I think i could sit there for hours and just listen about all her adventures from around the world . I'm glad ive finally met someone thats so passionate about travelling too . I also enjoy how were meeting up to plan a trip somewhere soon as possible and she said i'm the perfect candidate for it . Lynn , you are just what i needed . It was nice to get home and into bed , best feeling ever and i didn't want to move ! So today is gunna be pretty unproductive i feel . Might look out for some jobs over the net . Hmmm .


I like how if Dan wins the lottery hes gunna buy me a premium spotify account :)
x

bored now

of the same old scenery! Someone please employ me full time or donate about 2 grand my way so i can get out and see the world .

'I guess than you did leave me something to remind me of you,
Everytime I interrupt someone like you used to,
When I do something like you you'll be on my mind or through,
'Cause I forgot you left me behind to remind me of you'

party

laura marling

I know I said I loved you but I'm thinking I was wrong,
I'm the first to admit that I'm still pretty young,
and I never meant to hurt you when I wrote you ten love songs.
but a guy that I could never get 'cause his girlfriend was pretty fit
and everyone who knew her loved her so.
and I made you leave her for me and now I'm feeling pretty mean,
but my mind has fucked me over more times than any man could ever know.

Maybe I should give up, give in,
give up trying to be thin,
give up and turn into my mother,
god knows I love her.

and I'm sorry to which ever man should meet my sorry state,
watch my steady lonesome gait and beware.
I would never love a man 'cause love and pain go hand in hand
and I can't do it again.

So we stayed up late one night to try and get our problems right,
but I couldn't get into his head just what was going through my mind,
and I think he knew where I was going
he put Ryan Adams on
I think he thinks it makes me weak
it only ever makes me strong.
I've got this friend who sounds just like him,
now he's the man I'd leave you for, the man that I just adore like you.
The same man, he turns to me he said I've got to tell you how i feel,
if god could make the perfect girl for me it would be you
and my god told me not tell about how much do you love your fella?"
I don't know more everyday
not in this new romantic way.

I'll always be your first love, you'll always be my first love.

And I'm sorry to which ever man should meet my sorry state
watch my steady lonesome gait and beware,
I will never love a man 'cause I could never hurt a man in this way.
I will never love a man cause I could never hurt a man, not in this new romantic way.

i dont think

theres nothing more satisfying than washing hair dye out .

on a cold winters day

I feel the need to blog ! Perfect weather for it as im lying in bed wearing pjs , a over sized grey hoodie and a big scarf . I did have plans to wake up today , dye my hair , get ready for work and off i go . Turns out arriva was backing my idea of staying in bed and the buses are not running ! Theres something about the snow that makes everything seem about ten times prettier . My back garden looked amazing when it was untouched this morning , soon after the dog was prancing round in it and it didnt look so magical . Least he had fun though .
Yesturday was a strange one , a lot of things happened that made my day a little bit better . I got chatting to a lovely Irish lady at the bus stop about various things , and she offered to pay extra to my bus fair when the stupid bus driver wouldnt take my pound coin because it was dirty . I could have picked her up and hugged her right at that moment but luckily i had a spare quid floating around and there was no need to take her pension away .
I'm not entirely sure whats happened to the general public but it seems the weathers doing something as we have had the wierdest people ever come into work . What was with the beefcake man that wanted a pair of 'posh shoes' for playing snooker in , but also wanted something to give him height . Then he kept asking for my opinion , like i even care though really ! Then he was saying how hes built like a brick and i should see his arms . At that point i decided to get out as quickly as possible and swiftly approached another customer . The man didn't buy anything but did come back another two times . Complete wierdo !
The man in the wheel chair , you , probably opened my eyes alot actually . It just goes to show that you think like any one of us . Which is crazy because you must know you can't control what you do , and you must get some awful stares which is sick because you had a great sense of humour and i enjoyed the banter with you although you couldn't speak . Mental times , i hope your new cat boots serve you as well as the old ones .
After work , i felt some what very content . Dan let me go because i was getting annoyed over a addidas shoe and as i was walking through debenhams i felt somewhat excited to see how snowy it was , turned out to shoe quite a good effort and i walked to the bus station happily and trying not to slip over slightly fearing for my life . Bus didn't want to turn up , but i was happy to get a seat when it finally did . I was so shocked to see how much snow had fallen when i stepped off the bus ! Pure deep ! I enjoyed the crunching sound as i walked home . I didn't do anything last night , just debated dying my hair but thought id leave it until this morning , and thats where i am now . Debating what to do with my day off . It's stopped snowing which i didn't really want to happen as it means theres more chance of me having work tomorrow ! But oh well , anything could happen right .
Thats about it for this snowy wednesday anyway . snow photos will be up shortly no doubt ! Peace xxx ♥

shivery

Though it was an appropiate time to write one of these , at 8:57 before ive got to get ready for work . I woke up today very well considering how warm and toasty my bed was . Outside looked very pretty but also a deathtrap!! How will i get to work without falling over i don't know . I need more winter clothes too . Why did i only get sequined dresses for christmas!! why o why . Descovered after shouting the dog i have no voice too , gunna be great today at work , all that customer service ill be throwing out everywhere coz they definitely will hear me . Er i have nothing else to say other than i can't be bothered to get in the shower coz i'm afraid i'll freeze as i'm stepping out . Hope everyone has a nice Tuesday , apparently all the kids are back to school today which is nice as i won't have to deal with them at work ! Annoying shits! So looking for a pretty chillaxed day at work today .

happy new year

I hate it when people say , new year new start! It's like , well .. how exactly are you planning this new start ? Moving away are we ? Meeting new people , no your just stuck at home doing the exact same things that you did last year . Well , not me . I'm determined to show everyone that i mean business when i say i want a fresh start . It kills me a little inside to think i can't just go when i want but i guess things need to be planned and i need some money saved at least . I guess it also gives me chance to get things sorted here too , id miss everyone alot but i guess everyones still gunna be here when i get back . Minus friends but ill be going visiting so its all cool .

2010 , i'm ready for you .
Find a full time job , save up as much as i can .
Plan where i'm going in the world .
Win the lotto.
Loose weight.
Meet and marry Robert Pattinson.
SAVE UP.


very glad to see the back of 2009 .