Monday, 30 August 2010

bank holiday

So my nan had her purse nicked from her bag and my grandad had a stroke. If work have a go at me for not getting any orders i swear i'll just be like..
Other than that, i'm feeling ok. I'm very much looking forward to next weekend especially now i have a new dress that actually doesn't make me look like a slut. Usually you know, the shorter the better but with this massive posh do i thought i'd tone it down abit. Got this beaut lace dress that fits perfect in all the right places and also goes lovely with my clog heels which i still haven't had chance to wear yet. It will be nice to spend some time with the family. I'm just hoping my grandads better by then ! Then theres no worries all weekend!
Going to tidy my room tonight i think. Needs a good "spring" clean and i'll most likely be chucking some old clothes out. I need to do a car boot. Someone please do one with me! I'm quite excited about getting the slr out next weekend too. Finally something decent to photograph. It was starting to get dusty as the last time it was used was London. Still need to upload those photos!
This bank holiday weekend hasn't really been that eventful, with the rents away i couldn't really go too crazy as i had the dog to look after. Had the company of some good friends though and Jackie stayed over one night which was nice. Did the whole film and chocolate thing and attempted to get slightly drunk intending to go out but the moment we started watching the film we became the most tired ever. Lets just say mosh wasn't going to happen. At least we were 30 quid and a fresh head better off the next day!

Nothing is really happening these days. But something will. Honestly! Watch this space! x
This is literally one of my favourite songs ever.
One day i'll be in a crowd like that watching them do this.

taken from louiseeee, her blog is here x

i just watched twilight and fell in love with him again. Why o why is there not any one in the world like him. Why isn't magic real.

Sunday, 29 August 2010

Friday, 27 August 2010

guess what

i finished my diary.
i need a new one.

Thursday, 26 August 2010

"Maturity's a wrapped up package deal, or so it seems.
Ditching teenage fantasy means ditching all your dreams.
All your friends, and peers, and family solemnly tell you you will have to grow up, be and adult, be bored and unfulfilled.
But no one's yet explained to me exactly what's so great about slaving 50 years away on something that you hate. About meekly shuffling down the path of mediocrity.

If that's your road then take it, but it's not the road for me."

oh my goddddddddddddd

i need that puppy. that one right there. in the middle.

Wednesday, 25 August 2010

my head at 00:31 am Thursday 26th august

I just read my diary and i get a weird feeling when i think back to everything.
How much i liked you.
How you promised me.
How i wanted you to prove everyone wrong.
It makes me angry.
Unless you have nothing important or meaningful to say to me, please don't ever speak to me again.
What would be the point?
I did learn alot however.
If you don't have high expectations, you will never be let down.
I guess, i was.. yes but it's not like i'm letting it get to me.
Again, what would be the point?
You never know what is round the corner.
I may have the next year of my life planned but after that my life is like a book left open.
Visiting Liverpool made me have a serious think to myself.
Realistically i don't want to spend the rest of my life in Leicester.
Realistically, if i wanted.. I could start a life in Liverpool next year.
Realistically, if i wanted... I could start a life in Sheffield.
This is because i know i won't be alone.
London, on the cards.
Even Brighton.
I'm in love with my life because i'm not stuck.
Lucy made me realise this.
I'm not stuck in a job i hate.
I'm not stuck doing a degree i don't want.
I can literally, do what i want.
Everything happens for a reason right?
I'm so excited to see whats gunna happen.
Some people get scared at the idea of not knowing.
I think it's the best thing, like i said.. No expectations.. no let downs.

I'm in love with my life and i'm still only 19.

me :- mum, i really need a rich man in my life.
mum :- money isn't everything...
me :- it is at my age.

Monday, 23 August 2010

update of my life.

Spending abit of time in Liverpool, sharing a big beautiful house with lots of people and having so much space to play with makes me very sad. I enjoyed it alot, but it makes me scared for September.
o2 hate me. Another 30 quid phone bill when its only meant to be 15? Should probably sort that out, especially how i never ever ring anyone. I hardly even text these days!
Trip to sheffield is on the cards sometime next week so Lucy can hand out cvs. I'm enjoy spending my summer travelling here there and everywhere. It's breaking it up nicely. Also makes me excited to go visit everyone once there all at uni and settled in.
Hopefully going to ask about changing my contract tomorrow, i will get a better bonus at xmas this year. Unlike last..
Work everyday this week. Give me some money soon pleaseeeeeeee. I need to start going bingo or something, or just sell my life?

the end.

Friday, 20 August 2010

Just seeing your name annoys me.

got no words!

Wednesday, 18 August 2010



true fan these days! haha, literally the best hoody ever. Its made of fleece. FLEECE!!!