I dunno what it is, coming back and still not being able to find a job has sort of knocked my good mood. my positive thinking isn't so positive and i guess hanging around home while everyones at work can get quite lonely. I miss even having the dog to talk too.
I don't wanna be left behind, it probably doesn't make sense but i know what i mean. I feel like everyones moving forward and i'm just stuck. I guess i didn't really plan my escape for what i'd do if i was in this situation and now i'm feeling abit lost! I've never not been in work since i was 15 so this is quite strange. Depending on other people is not in my nature and i certainly don't know how people can do this out of choice! I'm bored to death, i want more money, and i want something new.
I guess i just need to keep waiting. In the mean time i'll just be doing my work out dvd, watching 2 broke girls, applying for jobs i probably can't do and drinking tea.

Massive sigh!!

Sorting my life out feels so good, i'm jobless and feel really useless right now which isn't helping but thinking positive is key!
This time in 2 weeks i'll hopefully have heard back from a job and have an interview.
This time in 2 months i would have a job and be doing all that christmas shopping that i can't wait to get started on. I'll also have started driving lessons.
This time in 5 months i'll be still enjoying my change in job.
This time in a year i hope to be on the road, earning my own money and looking into booking a nice get away for a few weeks. Thailand please ♥

Along the way i hope to have lots of fun, meet up with lots of the sunny beach lot, and get drunk lots of times.
This is my plan of action...very unlike me, i hate planning. Let's see how it goes.

Love love love

I've always said that no matter how shit i'm feeling, there's always something that makes me feel better. That something being the most beautiful four men that come in form of Mumford & Sons. It sounds abit cringy, but i'm pretty sure they are the answer to everything. Obviously the album Sigh No More has been rinsed for all it's got, EASILY having the most plays out of everything on my I Tunes, so when they released their new album yesterday i jumped at the chance to download it.
It is SO beautiful, i didn't think that they could out do their first work of art but somehow this one had grabbed me just as much, maybe more. I'm still only half way through it, and i already felt the need to blog about it. Must be something special ay! Mumford & Sons i. love. you. You came at just the right time.

Album on repeat forever more. ♥

I'm still missing you. The house feels so empty.

I've been home a week now and i'm still lovin every minute. My own bed, bloody amazing!!! It's been so good to catch up with everyone too. I've spent the last 5 months with some of the most amazing and interesting people, but when it comes down to it, you can't beat a catch up with your bestest friends. Seeing Jackie & Lucy made my week, i don't think i quite realised how much i missed them. ♥
Seeing Hannah, and spending some time with Schuh and Alex also has been a highlight of my week. Not much has changed since i went, other than some rather funny stories from the schuh lot, i don't think i've missed much, which is how i like it :)
I got to catch up with Richard, Rachel and their beautful little girl Charlotte. I'm so happy for them and it's so nice to see such a perfect happy family. I can't wait to see her grow up and spoil her lots! They also gave me alot to think about on the 'future card' which has made an idea that was once just an idea seem quite achievable. They both have certainly gave me lots to think about.
I'm liking being home, even if i am still unemployed and have no money...yeah i'm happy.

Yeah, i'm home and the only thing i want isn't here. The only thing i really missed all summer isn't here. My one favourite thing has gone and i'm really not sure how i'm even meant to cope with this. Sunny Beach took my mind off the whole thing, and now i'm home everything seems real. I fucking miss my dog so much. Spuddy i love you so much, and i hope you know that i'll never forget you.

I'm back again, that's 2 years in a row and i think it's safe to say i've done my time in Sunny Beach. This season was amazing, i had my ups and downs but i've learnt alot, once again. I've met some friends for life, had some of the BEST days and nights, seen some world famous djs, drank more than you can imagine, danced more than you can imagine, and laughed so much my insides hurt. I might have worked abit too, and slept a small bit, but that don't count.

Sunny Beach, you've been good to me...i'll see you again one day..just not to soon, i'm glad to be home.