HIYAAA

So, i've obviously been rubbish with this blog recently. Sorry people! I can't really use the excuse that i've been busy because i've not really. I suppose i just don't want to bore you all with me going on about how excited i am for the summer and that.
I'm trying to think about the things i've done since i last updated this! I think the most important thing, which by the way i wanted to write about as soon as it happened but couldn't quite get my words out is that i went to visit my lovely cousin a couple of weeks ago. I wasn't really sure what to expect, in my head, all i could imagine is what you see on the films, or tv shows. To be fair, i'm not sure whether it's naive of me to say this, but it wasn't as bad as i had expected. It was quite a friendly atmosphere (as friendly as it could be) and i can't explain how good it was to see him. It's such a peace of mind to finally see that he's doing ok. He's coping, and smiling and seems to be getting along with it as best he can. For the whole hour, i sort of forgot where we were, it was an hour of laughing and smiling and joking about what we're gunna do when he gets out. It hit hard when it came to leaving him. I can't imagine what it's like for kids. Next time i see him, he'll be home, and safe, and free. It really was what i needed. Peace of mind, he's doing ok.
My summer plans are coming along nicely. I'm not going to say alot until things are booked and finalised but all i can say is my summers probably going to be alot better than yours.
I'm back at the gym aswell! I forgot the amazing feel you get after a good hour at the gym. I'm sort of determined to be even slightly more toned, or slimmer for summer. At the minute (as you all know) i'm not at all happy with the way i look. Roll on that summer body that i literally dream of.
Other than the partying like a rock star, i've been working. Still on the slow 15 hour contract. It's starting to get me abit down, i mean not in a crying depressing down, just a sort of, itchy feet, want more hours, but not getting any down. I'm attempting to save and just finding it really hard. I can't save on the best of months so with the bare minimum hours i'm really struggling. I'm hoping to get a bit of money for my birthday however, which i'm determined to put straight into the savings account. I want it to go towards something and not wasted on alcohol, food, or pointless clothes that i don't need. Hopefully my hours will pick up abit, and i'll be able to get some over-time. Anyone need shifts covering you know where i am!
Talking about clothes, i may be completely condradicting what i have just said, but i can't wait to treat myself to a birthday outfit! It's going to be a BIG night, with lots of faces that i love. That's the main thing that i'm looking forward too. having everyone i love in one room. It's not very often that you can make that happen now, is it! I'll have a fair few coming from Sunny Beach, most of which i haven't seen since me and Sherri left in floods of tears at Jacks bar! I'll have the Schuh crew that will always pop along and show their faces, and i'll have the fam, that have been there for every birthday. Not forgetting the bessies Jackie&Lucy, and then there's Sherri who will be doing a hell of a lot of mingling for me!!! It's going to be amazing, and i'm yet to decide where we'll be heading. To be fair, i'm not at all bothered. As long as everyone's happy i'm happy! I'd happily just sit in a pub all night catching up with everyone, but i'm sure after one too many panda pops all i'll wanna do is danceeeeeeee!!
Speaking of 21st birthdays, i went out for Lucys last night which was a really good but surreal night!!! Good in the way i finally managed to get a decent amount of drunk, in the way i danced pretty much ALL night, and in the way i had Jackie there playing wing man at one point. (Although i was almost certain it would be me playing wingman, well done Jackie) Surreal in the way i felt like i had skipped back about 4 years with some of the people that i got re-united with. It was quite nice actually. Although it had been a long while, things were the same. Weirdly. I liked it. But anyway, Lucy had fun, and lots of shots were downed which i guess is the main thing. It was a good night and i felt like i was dying this morning so i guess that's what i was aiming for.

Other updates consist of :-
I'm staying single forever and i want nothing to do with valentines day.
I've decided to online shop more. Coming home from work to find parcels is literally like a little bit of christmas....but on a normal day. (see, i'm well good at saving)
I got my nose re-pierced, it fell out a day later.
I'm going London next month (FINALLY) to see Cortez. I've missed that city and that boy far too much.
I've started shopping for the flat that i'll get one day. I've bought a mug. (It's a start alright!)
Whitney Houston died last night.
We've recently had quite a bit of snow, it's at that annoying stage of ice and slush. What's the point?!

Chao for now.